Her hands are older then twice my age. Reaching out she touches the right side of my face, gently patting my right cheek as she tells me, “I Like You!”. Locking her blue eyes with my brown eyes she smiles from the inside out, cracking a big grin on her face. Just then she breaks out into her humming laugh, a trait that is unto her own, unique, individual self. She doesn’t remember who I am; though today was a blessing because she knew I was there. At least today she enjoyed a stranger’s kindness.

The past two months I had mutually fallen in love with a man from Western Mass. The beginning of the relationship was nothing like I had experienced before. Their was mutual respect and affection that went beyond words. Actions were consistent on both sides for a good 4 to 5 weeks. We went fast and hard. During all of this interaction it provided a catalyst for my creative juices to awaken.

Following are a few poems I had written during our brief romance:

YOUR RECENT STAY

My breath

Your breath

Thinking of you

I exhale memories

Of your recent stay

Triggering the antics

On my face

To smile

Gigantic and wild

I do love you!

Everywhere

I engage my focus

Reminds me of us

Breathing in

Exhaling out together

Before you

Was me,

My life

Now I can’t

Imagine

My life without you.

I breathe you.

Yes, I know

Our lungs

Are separate.

I taste

Your

Salty wet

Skin.

Yes, you

Have gone home.

I smell

Your

Sweet, pungent, scent

Driving

My Skin

To goose flesh.

Yes, you sleep

Alone tonight

In your bed.

In all my reflection

I realize

You have become

Part of my:

Heart

Soul

Mind

Breathing you

Feeling your emotions

Like they are my own

We

Us

Togeather

This is my life

Now.

How I see

My future

Is with You.

Our lives

Complementing each other’s

All awhile nurturing

Our distinctive,

Individual journeys

Trusting in our commitment

To grow in common goals,

Supporting us.

I want to be there

For you,

For me

Whatever may come?

Our way

We can

If we choose

Yes.

What is it about "LOVE?"

What is it about Love that makes us fall so fast and hard. Why will we go so far out of our way to accommodate a new person into our lives when at that split moment it feels so right. I am currently in the process of finalizing the intimacy in a relationship. This process always is difficult on my heart. When I love I am a giver and a receiver. When I am in love the person who has come into my life becomes the second most important focus other then myself and my job. This time I had never before felt so appreciated, so loved and so much wanted. I had never before felt so alive.

Then the Honey moon ended after about three weeks. We began to notice differences in one another that challenged us to either stand up to the plate and compromise or back away and retreat into our own single worlds again. The latter part is happening to us. We are retreating into our own single worlds again.

As I have grown older and wiser I am able to see when a relationship is headed in an unhealthy direction. In the past I would just stay thinking I could make the person respect me just by holding on. Today is different. I am willing to set idiocincysities aside until I have compromised too much.

I am just grateful, to this point, that we will be seeking closure in this transition; from intense romantic emotions to a respectful friendship. This is the most important thing for me to do. I have great respect for this person and in the short two months we have been intensely involved I have learned allot about myself and the relationship has opened many new doors for me to explore. One of those doors is learning how to speak Spanish as a second language. Another door is knowing how I want to be loved. The beginning of our relationship was respectful, loving, and filled with compassion. The romance was equal, and the giving was mutual. This I know I want for now on in my life, but then everything else from there will need to fall into place too.

The one thing I will never understand is how one person can stop trying so quickly; shutting down the intimacy in such a short spurt of time when the other is willing to work things out. Today that is when I agree to move on to greener pastures, in the past I would have tried and compromised until I was no more but an empty shell.

What is it about love? I don't know, but I always will think it is worth the effort. One day I hope to find the one person who is willing to travel down the same road as me and only every now and then go sight seeing to follow their dreams; knowing always they come back home to us.

That's all for now........Jasper